A new song that caught my attention..

Syah Basree- Andai itu takdirmu was featured in a telemovie  in Tv3 'Asmara 2'
I think he's a new born singer who is very talented with beautiful voice which touched my heart. :)
Hope there'll be an explaination about the song.

The Lyrics..

Sinar mata hilang indah sinar
Bagai mengerti rasa
Dan suara
Pergi madah cinta
Namun apaku daya

Chorus
Andai itu takdirmu
Ku dakap redha
Hingga membawa dia
Ke syurga dengan yang Esa
Di sini kan ku
Ku mohon padamu
Doa kau selalu ku setulus kalbu
Ku serah segala padamu
Harapanku satu
Bisa adanya waktu

Berbicara tentang kisah kita
Tercipta penuh makna
Ku terima mungkin akhirnya
Jalani hidup kita


Ku sujud atas kasihmu
Beri petunjuk untukku
Ku percaya
Untuk terus berharap sehingga ku mampu

Di sini kan ku
Ku mohon padamu
Doa kau selalu ku setulus kalbu
Ku serah segala padamu
Harapanku satu
Ada waktu

Ku serah segala padamu
Harapanku satu
Bisa ada kau waktu
Andai itu takdirmu

Monday Blues

Wake up call? something that i  will do for someone who i care.. and yes, it happened today and the day before.
i wish i know your feeling for me. these aren't just words but its the truth. Im so impatient that i hurts me when you break the promise. What promise? hmm..

back to the top, today my mates and i were supposed to go to Perpustakaan Negara in Kuala Lumpur unfortunetly, it's close. Haiyo.. I was looking forward for this trip as it had been a long time since i went there. Hhaha Can you believe it? I really miss you PN.
anayhow, im not sure of our plan B for today. hope that we can work this out for we really need to study. :)
Even its only two subjects, im still struggling to hold on. im Scared for this semester. and i really hope that it will work out. I want to do my Best, Beat the Best. insy.. with gods' willing. hOPE This semester will start on with a good smile, and so on. We struggle for success and we will reach it if we work for it.

 Love

A True Friend Like You'10

Sahabat paling berharga..

Adakah aku salah? Apa betul apa yg aku kata kan pada diri nya. Mungkin juga kata-kata ku itu sudah meluka kan hatinya. Tapi aku masih belum sedar  akan  kesilapan aku sendiri. aku benci mendengar diri ku berkata2 tentang dirinya. Dia adalah sahabat karib ku di sini. Dia hampir kenal siapa diri ku sebenarnya. Dia hampir menjadi seorang yang aku percayai. Aku salah. Dan aku sedar kesalahan ku. Tapi hanya untuk sekarang dan hari ini.. kemudian aku akan lupa ttg nya dan menambah kesalahan aku. Apakah maksud perasaan yg bergelumang ini?

 Aahh.. Ape yang aku merepek ni!  Aku tau, ini semua memang mula nya dari perangai aku yg x sedar diri.. seorang yg sungguh egoistic,hipokrit, perasaan yang nak menang selalu. Itulah aku. Boleh dikatakan begitu. Tidak kah aku nmpk org yg berada di sekeliling aku ini adalah di kalangan manusia 2 yang bijak,rendah diri, sopan santun dah berakhlak mulia! Sungguh keji diri ini mengotor kan kain yg suci lagi cantik lukisan batik yang dilukis atas kain itu. “Mengapa mesti kau kotorkan dan tambah lukisan2 yang cacat cela yang terang dilihat oleh org ramai. Tidak kah kau rasa malu kerana diri mu tiada motivasi? Tiada juga objektif hidup.. sedar lah kau bahawa kau bukan manusia yang berkuasa. “

Malu lah Wahai Hamba ALLAH..

  

Sahabat,maafkan aku. Kerana aku tak reti hendak menjelaskan perangai aku terhadap diri mu. Aku malu dgn sifat ku yang sebegini. Kau seorang hamba allah yang teguh iman nya. Kau ada pendirian diri. Lain daripada diriku sendiri. sahabat, aku sgt bertuah ada kau disisi ku di saat2 hiba,gembira dan tegang. Kau sabar dengan perangai aku yg keji ini. Apa yang kau nmpk pada diriku. Maafkan aku merosakkan akal mu dgn gosip2 yang aku tau akan m’dapat dosa.

Kau dan aku? Sangat berbeza. Perbezaan seperti langit dan bumi.

Sahabat, kau diberi kasih sayang yg bagi kau sunggu bermakna. Kau percaya kepada mereka2 yang kau kenal. Kau tidak pernah kedekut ilmu walaupun secubit garam. Sahabat,kau ada keperluan yg kau inginkan. Keluarga bahagia,kau kenal mereka. Dan sungguh rapat lagi. Kau ada pendidikan yang tinggi. Kau ada kebolehan dalam sukan,seni dan pelajaraan. Kau reti mengaturkan masa. Kau berdikari dan tidak mununjukan perasaan kepada mereka walaupun kau sedih. Kau tempuhi hampir segalanya dengan teguh. Kau tak penah putus harapan walaupun cabaran berduri2. Dan Sahabat,kau tau ape yang kau belajar dan ilmu yang kau dapat xkan berakhir di situ sahaja.. yang paling penting,

 KAU RAPAT PADA ALLAH S.W.T… alhamdulilah.

Aku doakan kau yang terbaik di mada depan dan di akhirat. Akan ku cuba doakan utk diri mu. Kerana jasa mu tak terkira.  Sahabat,kau tau kau sakit,tapi kau tempuhi nya dgn teguh.  Andai kata nyawa atau persahabatan ini berakhir. Aku mahu kau tahu yang aku kasih kan kau sebagai soerang adik,pendidik dan seorang sahabat yang paling berharga yang pernah aku jumpa.  Aku cemburu bila kau lebih dapat perhatian.. tapi itu semua memang sudah lahir dalam perasaan seorang manusia. 

Love

What I Wrote in The Past'10

I don’t know what you are doing now..

And I don’t know what to say..

But, I just want you to know, that,

I used to LOVE YOU

 ASALAMUALAIKUM,

Mr, you will always stay in my heart even though you and I were to be separated in the future. Mr, You make me believe in myself, You make me believe I was beautiful. You have almost everything that I wanted from the guy of my dream.  I know not everyone gets what they always dreamed for. So, I agree. I don’t understand why can’t you further your studies?  Is it that hard? I can see clearly that some of them do this, “once they fall and snapped by failure, they tend to set their mind and say “I shall not continue my undefined war”  ... They are wrong. Don’t give up when u fail Mr; try your best to reach what you dreamed of!  Don’t end your journey just like that.  You have the power to control your dreams and it’s never too late to reach for it. You have the brain of knowledge that you can share with people around you.. it’s just that you need to learn how to share them.

They often say that love is blind.. Yes love is blind.. ‘Blinded with a white scarf that you can fold on your eyes and let the person paint the colour of your journey with you loved ones. 

You knew me since I was in form 5. On the 1^st January of 2008,on the morning light of new year eve, we both opened the internet. At first I had no impression on you. My thoughts were like, “ahaa another person that I wish I could be friend with.. yes baby it was you. But I didn’t plan up this relationship.  I am a very lucky person my dear. I’m so lucky to have someone like you who manage to cope with my anger, jealousy, white lies and much more.  Thank you..  Sorry you can’t hear love quotes and romantics saying from myself but I hope you will understand.  I will try to be one but I want to be a unique person and not like the others who can say a thousand words which is filled with lies. I don’t want to make promises that I can’t cope with. I hope by the hard ship that we have been going through, you will stay thought. As strong as you iman. I’m happy that you are back to the road that is praised by all.. Allah S.W.T

Don’t say you love me, unless forever.. by The Corrs

Edited on July 6, 2010

10.45 pm

Why..

Hmm.. this just happened. I don't know why im feeling this way. why can't you ask me?

i thought i told you that i wanted to accompany you to the Fair. i told you yesterday and you said "okay".. but today, instead of planning it with me, you went on with your friends and not me. 

Sangat Terasa di situ. =.=  Don't u care?

I know i am just a female friend.

I know im nothing to you. BUT please take sometime and think about me and my feelings for you.

Im happy when u showed me your passport picture. Yes, i admit. i did laugh at those pictures.. I'm sorry if i critique what you wore and you didn't like it. Deep inside, no one understands how  i feel for you. 

Might..

Might is a strong word. . It may be true,and it may be wrong.

Kenape kite tak senang nak tahu dan faham perasaan seseorang tu dengan senang?

kalau kite dapat baca perasaan org yang kite sayang pun pasti hati kite tidak akan senang.

sesetengah org suka pendan perasaan bile mereka berfikir dan tak suka berkongsi dengan org lain.

Mungkin,nie pendirian diri dia.

kalau kita suka org tu. ade ke patut kte terus ckp kat die, "hey, you.. i like you"

hmm..nie memang kerja gila. cakap tak fikir dulu.

im not talking straight here.. what im trying to express here is.

I fell for my senior who is 6 years older than me. And he makes me happy and comfortable everytime in with him. However,i don't know how he feels about me. i'm scared that its only me who feels this way. im too scared to ask him the questions. i miss the time that we had spent together. i miss the way he makes me laugh all night when we were on phone talking for one hour.. without any specific topic to be discussed on.

is it because of the age or is it just my feelings that makes me anxious.

i don't want to be treated like a toy. i want to be someone he will miss,someone who he'll always be thinking about. i want to be his everything. Why can't you see it this way Mr. MLS

for me, the moment that we had spent together is one of the most precious moments in my life. i don't want to forget them. Tell me,do you feel the same way like i do?

Im tired gussing and searching for the right answer. I hope and i pray that i will get the answers from God.

"Ya Allah,kalau dia bukan utk diriku.. Kaburkan lah penglihatan ku utk diri nya.

Ya Allah, jika aku bukan pemilik tulang rusuknya, janganlah biarkan aku merindukan kehadirannya , janganlah biarkan aku melabuhkan hatiku di hatinya, Kikislah pesonanya dari setiap pelusuk mataku dan usirlah dia dari relung hatiku Gantilah damba kerinduan dan cinta yang bersemayam di dada ini, dengan kasih dari dan pada-Mu yang tulus dan murni, Bantulah aku agar dapat mengasihinya hanya sebagai seorang sahabat :)"