Aurora

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I wish everything could go back to normal.
Start like never before.
I want it to be as fresh as the fish from the sea.
What? “The Relationship that I had with u”.
Only as Friends.
Where I have no feelings for you.
There’ll be no hard feelings towards what you do to me. 
A starting, where we can move from the first check point to another. 
As friends.
I don’t want people to push me towards something that I can’t be sure of in the future.
I want the move in my own way and not others.
I want to be me, myself and no one else.

I am sorry if what I have said to you has made you felt uncomfortable with our friendship.
 Maybe the move that I took was a sign from Allah S.W.T, so that I know the truth.
But I waited for your answer until today.
Still, there’s no key to the answer.
I don’t know why can’t you  just spill it out to me.
Don’t waste my time and stop hurting my feelings.
I’m getting tired of waiting for something that I don’t even know when it is going to happen.
Let me go and let me move on, if I’m the only one who is having this feeling and not you.
 Release me.
I can’t move on until you let me know your answer to my questions.
Tell me what we have been through and what we shared is what “just friends” does!
Brave yourself and tell me!
Don’t lie to me and take me as a fool.
Maybe it was never a sign of hope.
We are different. I can see that.
Thank you for the lesson that u gave me.
You are just one of the pit stops that I have to go through in my journey of life.
Insyallah, it is towards a better life in the future.