searching for the real "soul"

beep!!!

the sound of my mobile phone.. meaning,i have received a message.. (private and confidential)
not so! it's the guy whom i knwn 3 years ago..
he's not the type that u can call "perfect"..
okay! wtv!
the thing is.. i use to hate when i become their last victim..
Meaning: the last person to contact when you are:
1: boring
2: there's no one else to talk to
3: i need to ask u about campus
4: i need your help!! "i"m so bored"
5: i need a shoulder to lean on
and etc....

I used to hate it..
for me,it's like i'm the last tissue that u have and the last hope of all..
they don't call me for fun or to hang out..
i'm the one who is suppose to click for someone.
"hey! can we hang out?"

Am i that bored? just because my brain is not as same as yours and i don' gossip as often as u guys do?

well,FYI he does that to me.
and some of my friends does tht also.
by mean, my best pal..

but u kept on supporting them.
i know i can advice and lean a shoulder.
BUT.... the thing is I don't want to be the last"

THIS IS SAD..